When things happen out of a sudden

I am still in a very shocking state while writing this piece..

A few months ago, a dear friend of mine had passed away. It was a tragic accident that took his life, leaving behind a wife and their baby. I was told that he died because of internal bleeding. A couple of close friends and me drove back to his hometown to meet his parents and offer our condolences. I can still remember those times when we would hang out near the emergency door puffing cigarettes. We used to joke around with his tie. You see, Arwah Akashah will always wear the same tie no matter what colour his shirt is. It doesn't really bother him that they doesn't match as long as he got his neck tie on. A simple and humble person he is.. I truly miss his presence.

Today, as I was reading through the blogs, I came across this update.

I met up Arwah Syukree last Sunday during the Mesra Rakyat virgil. He told me that he is a reporter at one weekly newspaper. We talked about his work, KT elections and that he had been going to the virgils since the 1st day the virgils were held. I am a bit sad that we lose someone who truly believes in what he does. May you rest in peace, my friend. Semoga tuan ditempatkan bersama2 orang2 yang soleh.

And even if you are no longer with us; we will carry along the spirits and believes that was always with you.

Kematian adalah sesuatu yang pasti. Tidak kira siapa kita, apa yang kita ada hanyalah satu pinjaman dari Nya.

Alfatihah buat Arwah Akashah dan Arwah Shukree..

I need to pen down my thoughts

I have to say something. I have been thinking to pen down my thoughts for quite sometime now but I just couldn't find the time. Now.. is that an excuse or a reason? It sounded more like an excuse.. well, probably it is.

What do I want to talk about? Here they are (not in any chronological order):-

1. My kids are leaving, they are going back to their mother's hometown in KK. Though I tried to reason it out, I find it so difficult to believe that it is for their own good. Probably I was looking at it from my own perspective. Maybe I should ask them what they really want. But then, would they be able to think whether the whole thing is for their own sake? Sigh.
2. I just got my promotion letter today. Well, it was about time! I had it up to my limit already. Too much work and at times I believe that we do need some form of recognition. Probably for our self-satisfaction. Thank God. Alhamdullillah.
3. My relationship with my mum got better. I am so glad. I learn to respect more of what she wanted to do for me. After all, I am the only son. Though I have never say it to her, "Dear mummy, I love you so much". There it goes. Now, the only thing left is I need to say it out. Easy? Hmmm.. I know that she is always there for me. Yeah, and I know... I've been a bad son for all these years. But at least there are some positive progress.
4. My inclination towards a better Malaysia had never lessen. I got myself more involved in the movement to abolish ISA. I believe that the particular law is too much. I cannot accept the fact that my fellow Malaysians are being charged for crimes that was never proven. They must be proven guilty. If there is no evidence, then just let them go. It is as simple as that. We just cannot locked up people and take away their freedom anymore. It is just not right. ISA must be abolished. It has to stop.
5. I have found a new beginning on how my future could be. I pray to God that there are more good things that will happen out of this.

.. and I shall write again.

Extreme Distress - I Agree

"... it is the nation who is in distress. We are facing economic uncertainty and the citizens are facing all sorts of difficulties facing it. We are losing our competitive edge and we are losing our territories too." - Sheih Azidi

NOTE: Displaying the flag upside down is internationally accepted to denote extreme distress. It is not a sign of disrespect for the flag. Read here.

Huarrrrgghh.....

Enuf said!

Quite Unexpected

Things are going on as usual except for the petrol price hike which had came unexpectedly for some of us. A friend of mine, a petrol station operator, hinted that the government will increase the petrol price. Huh.. true indeed. But who would expect the increase to be that high?! Sigh..

The whole day, petrol price is the only thing people are talking about. More complaints rather than praises were heard, almost everywhere. I have not met personally neither heard even a single person who support the move to increase petrol price, yet someone said that a few 'beruk' (plural) on tv had said something to the extend that the government had made a wise move in deciding to increase it. Yeah, of course. MSM, we watch them when there's nothing else on TV. Some quarters seems to think that its unavoidable. I beg to differ. Reasons? None, just yet. But who needs reasons nowadays to oppose what others think is right. Ironic, huh..

One thing I am glad of, is that I had travelled out of town on each weekends, for the last couple of weeks; Cameron Highland and Seremban. Luckily, they choose to change the petrol price after the end of the school holidays. Nonetheless, it's timely that I should opt for something that would help ease this burden of higher fuel expenses. Maybe, I might consider using NGV. In the long run, without using the calculator, I know I can save quite a bit.. Of course, we pay more to install it but in the long run?

Well, my fellow Malaysian, I wanted to believe that there is always something good installed for us if we look beyond what is obvious. But I am shortsighted. So, what to do!?

Strangers within us

Sadly.. it does happen; from time to time.

Speak up, please.

I have been actively reading blogs and other articles, post-GE12. Some had left me with provoking thoughts, others merely tickled my tummy. It's quite funny though how I had changed my perspective on how the political scenes in this country is heading on. When I was at primary school, I remember going around TokBa house in Sg Petani collecting those BN posters. My thought was that, hey.. I'm going to hold on to this posters and re-hanged them during the next election. But of course, I can't recall where I had placed them the very next day.

As years passes by, with TokDet doing a very great job at what he was doing, I got into this complacent stage of - let them do what they do best, we'll just hang around to cheer them up when they walk pass by us. I believe that he is still good at what he did. He managed this beloved country very well. Wait, dont jump on me yet. I was just as innocent as the rest of the Malaysians who taught that these people were doing everything that they could for the benefit of each and everyone of us.

He he.. but that was the thing of the past. I've changed sides now. I just couldnt stand it any longer looking at those people 'with out' power taking advantage of what ever that they could get their hands on. Those with power? Needless to say arrr, its too obvious to comment.

Sometimes, we were too lazy to even say things that we disagree. Probably, it's the way we were brought up. (Who can we blame now?) I know for sure, I was raised that way. Mum would give me a 'bull's eye' stare whenever I wanted to say something while the elders are talking. So, what would you do? I would just sit back and keep quiet. The one and only right thing to do then.

That was 30++ years back.

Sufiah Yusof stories were spreading through the net and the papers, faster than I could say, "Woi bodo!". In a day, last week, I had at least 10 emails about her sitting in my inbox. One peek at the 1st one got me so pissed off. C'mon! I am not pissed off at Sufiah!. I was so disgusted by the way people are spreading her story. Did'nt it occur to their mind - "How would Sufiah's family members faced this agony??" Of course, we can't stop the wave but at least don't contribute to it. I am damn f**king sure, Sufiah did'nt want to get that messed up when she was studying her maths way back in school then. She was trapped. And there was probably no one around to help her up.

Owh, for God sake, just stop it. Let it subside naturally.. please.

I got into the habit of speaking up to those who sent me those emails.. at least, for a start.

And I would certainly continue speaking (read: blogging) up when there's something or anything I wanted to say.

Not Anymore

Needed i say more???

Over To You Dear

A friend responded to my earlier blog.. and i gave her another piece of my shit. It doesn't matter if you can't make sense of the things mentioned here. I shall not attempt to make any further clarification.

She says : Sorry, I beg to differ frm u on ethnicity. U can say it now, but DAP is still and will always be all about Chinese. Listen carefully, and you will see. Luckily, you still have your Malay MB. Look at CGC itself, now u have your new SM frm Audit-what a jerk. Even your MD doesn’t really trust his own race.

So, I said : I am looking at a wider scope, not this CGC… as far as CGC is concern, if we don’t make changes; things will still be the same. It has been the same for the past 1 or 2 years in terms of what Perba is suppose to look at right now. Not that we didn’t give a chance to the current people for them to change how provisioning is going on, we did. But do things change? Nope, it didn’t. So let’s try another approach. It is just a coincidence that he has darker skin color and that he goes to temple to pray.
Would you think differently if he worships the same God as ours?
Would you have a different view if we get someone else (with ‘bin’ or ‘binti’) who lives by ‘provisioning’ day in and day out to do it?
On whether he or whoever can deliver or not, we won’t know until the person is given a chance. And if it doesn’t work, we change again.
It is the action that we take in order to change that matters.

She said : but u tell me who ever is the leader—definitely they will gain too sooner or later. Everyone is selfish. Look at CGC itself laa—amik SM baru frm audit yg tak tahu rehab at all, just because of using big fan---n attend meetings.

And I said: It is the same with the PRU12.

That is why the rakyat elected to change those who are in power now. The BNs were given enough time to change things that had made almost every single person on the street disgruntled. But, did they? Maybe they did, but they are perceived as not doing anything for the benefit of the rakyat. Why am I saying that? Reasons are obvious. And coincidently, the people that the rakyat chose are of different races and religions.

She said : Surely, I as a Malay, I want my country to rule by malay leaders who will continue to champion the rights of Malay. Not DAP/or Cina/ I still look at ethnicity—because adi—u never had those feeling of discrimination by other race for simple things such as borrowing books frm the uni library. How they circulate everything among themselves.
True I don’t agree with some umno leaders—typical—but u tell me---if you go to Lim Kit Siang—u thing he will help u?
I vote PKR just for the sake of Anuar Ibrahim—or his malay counterpart. His Malayism is still strong even though his agenda now is ambiguous.

Yes, I will go to Lim Kit Siang if I need to. Similarly, I would go to BN leaders, if I need to (again). And, if I don’t get the help that I needed from the person who I elected then I shall not elect him/her again. On the fact whether the leaders (that I have chosen or will choose) will help me or not, that would have bearing on my vote in the next 5 years and many more years to come.

It has been 50 years that those people think the Malays have ‘taken them for a ride’. But they’d survived. Because of what the Malays did to them (directly or indirectly), they retaliate. Probably, that is why you had problems borrowing books at Uni. Today, we are giving them just a little bit of what we have. There is no reason for us to be worried or even feel unsecured. If they had managed being a second class citizen all this years, must we be worried if we are still the 1st class citizens? Frankly, I think we should all be in the same class - of citizen.

And you think that I had never gone through the feeling of discrimination of being among the non-Malays? He he... we have had our fair share of that. Most of the Malays did (if not all). Try asking those who work at the place where majority are non-Malays. Lion Group, for example. They can tell you how discriminated and pressure they felt working there. If you waited long enough, probably, you can even compile what they say in a book as thick as the Yellow Pages.
But wait. What about those IPT specially built for Malays only? UiTM. What about those special discounts that we get when we buy houses as a Bumiputera? What about those other privileges that we get when we fill up forms dealing with the govt? I bet those non-Malays don’t feel discriminated at all. Why? You tell me. Why should they?

In fact, the more we feel discriminated, the more we re-act. The more we will progress. Ain’t that what happen to the Chinese? The Indians are another case in hand.

And finally, she said : N I don’t need a blog to show everyone that my am proud of my ethnicity n how Chinese n INDIANS are taking us for a ride. Tian Chua tu best sgt ker? Baik Hj Hadi. Should read Melayu Mudah Lupa by Mahathir.

RPK said, (and i edited it a bit) : The Malays are very emotional and unrealistic, lamented Mahathir on one occasion. The Chinese are more pragmatic, he added. Why can't the Malays be more like the Chinese? sighed Mahathir. Mahathir must be joking. He wrote the book; Melayu mudah lupa. Didn’t he?

Melayu mudah lupa, complained Mahahir on yet another occasion. Yes, Mahathir should know that by now. When he was Prime Minister, the Umno Malays would fall over each other in rushing to kiss his hands. Today (before the election), they are scared of being seen with him and will not even take his calls. If that is not the best example of Melayu mudah lupa then I don't know what is.

Najib says that the Chinese should reject DAP because DAP is working with PAS and PAS supports an Islam State. Najib is therefore saying that he too does not support an Islamic State. Najib says that the Malays should reject PAS because PAS is working with DAP and DAP supports a Secular State. Najib is therefore saying that he too does not support a Secular State. To the Malays, Najib says he does not support a Secular State and, to the Chinese, he says he does not support an Islamic State. So what then does Najib support? Well, it all depends on who he talks to. If he talks to the Chinese, he will whack the Islamic State and, if he talks to the Malays, he will whack the Secular State. Najib thinks that Melayu Umno bodoh and Cina DAP bodoh as well. Yang pandai Najib seorang saja.

Lastly I said : I blogged. And I shall continue blogging. He he..

Over to you, dear.

I love my country

Huh.. i just can't imagine for once.. that i had stay awake the whole night simply for the reason to know what is going to happen to this country. I waited for the polling result until Pak Lah made the announcement - BN had won with simple majority.

Yes, they did. And yes BN will rule again BUT this time around they won't be running this country like 'mak bapak dia punya'!!

This morning, a Chinese fella smiled when he saw me giggling at the news of BN defeat in Petaling Jaya. I looked up and said to him, "They deserved to lose". At the very moment, i have lost all the prejudice that was always within me every time i looked at non-Malays. I sense the greatest feeling of muhibbah crawling inside me slowly.

PKR and PAS took over from BN in Shah Alam. DAP was given the win by the rakyat in Subang and PKR got their share of it in Kelana Jaya. These are the places where my life revolves. .

I had given my mandate to those i think could bring changes to this country. I disregard their ethnicity. I don't care if they do not embrace Islam. I couldn't be bothered if their skins colours are not the same as mine. But truly, we are one. We are Malaysians. And I believe with all my heart that we can make this country a better place.

Whatever it is, let us all join hands and pray to God that the new Malaysia will be better. There are more people of younger generation in the Parliament now.. Khairy J, Nurul Izzah, Mukhriz M, Tian Chua, Nasharuddin, Mohd Azmin etc. means the voice of the young will be heard. I am damn sure that they wanted(have) to make Malaysia a better place for everybody; now that everybody is eyeing every single moves that they make. To move forward is to leave behind the old agendas.

Those old chickens can now take their beliefs and greediness down the drain and get their hands off the duit rakyat. You all semua dah kaya dan bertambah kaya. Dah cukup. Let the rakyat be given the equal opportunity. Let the rakyat gain something out of the rezeki of this country. Let us, the people of younger generation show you how it is to be done.

And the country shall now have the undying love (rightfully) from its citizens.. as how it should be.

It is now time for me to love this country again.

Someone Said..

Someone said....

Never take someone for granted.

Hold every person close to your heart.

Because you might wake up one day

And realize that you've lost a diamond

While you were too busy collecting stones.

Smiles

Smile.

Pull both sides of your lips, back and upward.

Strain up the top portion of the cheek muscle.

Does it feel good?

Hah.. certainly not!

That's what I've become. I do smile..

But those smiles are no longer genuine.

What to do?

I guess.. there's nothing much except

..keep on smiling.

Future

A few of us always know what we wanted to do in life. Some of us actually tried something to fulfill our dreams. But most of us simply let things take place on its own.

Forgotten..

It was a nice Friday morning..

Norsuriani, the mother.. text me and told me that she stumbled into my blog page.

He he.. what a nice lady, somehow connected to a past that i wishes to forget; only to realised that the past had already been forgotten.

Funny though, i have forgotten a lot of things recently.. Is it due to my ageing?!

I've read somewhere that one can always remember everything and anything if ones actually pay attention to it.. Gotta pay more attention then..

I've forgotten the name of this Blog and somehow Suriani reminds me of it..

And the past must not be forgotten anymore.