A loser

Writing a blog is like telling the whole world about your secrets. You never know who would be reading them. At times, I wanted a specific person to read what I wanted to say and know what I feel inside. But that is like inviting controversy..

Life have been so 'tunggang terbalik' for the past 1 year.

Met people, got involved, forgotten and cursed, hatred and lost; caca merba all together.

And the hardest thing in life is to admit that we have weaknesses. Mine are:-

1. I am still not sure what I wanted to achieve in life. Is it a peaceful life with someone called a wife? Or having to meet new people day in day out, sharing stories and going thru all sorts of adventure?
2. My religious duty is not as 'mantap' as how it should be at this age. Scarry huh?
3. Losing someone who understands me due to my own mistakes in the past. It haunts me from time to time, no matter how hard I tried to get over it.
4. My obligations towards upbringing of my children.
5. Stopping my bad habit of smoking. I cant seem to find a reason to stop, for me to hold on to. I hope they increase the price to RM20 a stick.

Oh boy, the list can go on and on.. Am i a loser?